Yesterday was a difficult moment. My health problems caught up with me once again scaring the heck out of my wife and causing this feeling of “gosh will this ever end” in me.
I had to force myself to sit in front of the easel and at first nothing seemed to appear on the white paper. Then slowly I began to like some of the details. It took me 3 hours or so to get to something. Right after that first work I felt more serene and I decided to immediately start 2 more paintings.
Here are the results :
This is the first one. The title speaks for itself and came to my mind spontaneously and with vigor. This morning I can really see yesterday’s turmoil on the paper. The suffering is right there before my eyes.
These are the 2 paintings I did after this :
Painting does soothe the pain caused by my situation : not quite done with my former life and still not totally decided where to go to from now on. It also is a good witness of this particular moment in my life.